As long as I can remember I have been overweight, even as a early teenager I was always the fattest. Years ago I managed to lose 57 lbs but now 37 of them are back. And I hate it…
The Ellen in my head is thinner than the Ellen in real life. Seeing myself on pictures makes me sad, that’s not who I am on the inside!
I can live with the fact that I will never be a thin girl, but I can’t accept how fat I am now.
I mean, look at me! I hate myself looking like this: